Unsent text message to Gavin

I saw something today that reminded me of you.

And I don't know why.

On the day that we saw this together, I know something happened. Something my brain filed away as significant between us, hence this feeling of you embedded into this moment.

But whatever that significance was, I can not recall. It feels like I'm…

My world revolves around you. My planets orbit you like Saturn’s rings. They orbit you like the sun.

You are all around my life. I walk into Walmart and I remember your scent even though I don’t know what you smell like.

I play the games we used to play together. I play them with others and it doesn’t bring half the joy…

I thought I'd forgotten and forgiven you long ago. But I just can't forget you. Your voice, your hair, your eyes. The way I confessed my love to you, and you said I was just an acquaintance to you. How you deleted all our chats and blocked me everywhere. And I still can't forget you. I think I still love you, but at…

I've been, again, thinking about you regularly for the past days. Whenever I think I moved on it, it seems you're still there in my mind.

I wonder how you're doing, and I want to ask you if you're well and happy, and figured, why should we keep not talking to each other? What is the point? Life is too short and…

You made it clear last night....and I promise...I will NEVER ...touch you. Not ever.

From B to R

We will be going on another date soon. I hope it ends with a kiss or handholding ☺️