Unsent text message to Riley

I knew it years ago, I thought I made a mistake or saw things differently, but you didn't chose me then and neither did you now or in the future. I can see now that our situationship wasn't right for me and it was never going to evolve to fulfill my needs or give me the chance to be a partner to you.

I set myself up. My shadow worked in secret so that I could finally let my ego die. And let go of pride. ****. Rip...

But wont explain why that is. I was bound to **** it up as I do to all things i try to hold onto. One day in the future, when I've built my clean time back up. And I've continued to do the right thing. Maybe idek. Whatever. Nevermind.

142 with some good tea and a rush of hotness through our body . I love you. I only want you . No matter the ugly . I may talk alot of **** . But I only want you .

I miss your skin on mine and laying next to each other with you snoring in my ear.

Come back home to me.

You were the one for me. The only one that mattered. I had to let you go for a good reason and you know it. I miss you so much and will probably miss you forever

Hi. These past months have been incredibly difficult for me.

So while you may be peacefully going on with your life, I need you to know your actions were cruel and hurtful. And that hurt has multiplied with time, because I have never experienced this kind of treatment. I opened up to you in a way I hadn’t in years and…