Unsent text message to Linda

But wont explain why that is. I was bound to **** it up as I do to all things i try to hold onto. One day in the future, when I've built my clean time back up. And I've continued to do the right thing. Maybe idek. Whatever. Nevermind.

142 with some good tea and a rush of hotness through our body . I love you. I only want you . No matter the ugly . I may talk alot of **** . But I only want you .

I miss your skin on mine and laying next to each other with you snoring in my ear.

Come back home to me.

You were the one for me. The only one that mattered. I had to let you go for a good reason and you know it. I miss you so much and will probably miss you forever

Hi. These past months have been incredibly difficult for me.

So while you may be peacefully going on with your life, I need you to know your actions were cruel and hurtful. And that hurt has multiplied with time, because I have never experienced this kind of treatment. I opened up to you in a way I hadn’t in years and…

I’ve been manifesting you. I really hope you feel it and decide to see what’s going on. Sometimes I feel like you do feel it and ignore the pull. Which is understandable considering the fact that you might hate me. I’m hoping you don’t though. There is honestly no reason to and I don’t want to invalidate your feelings…

Hey, whether you want to hear this or not is up in the air, but heregoes. Its been 10 days now. 10 days of asking myself questions like "why" or "what if?" And 10 days of grabbing my phone everytime it went off hoping its you. 10 days without phone conversation, no work day check ins, or random pics. It was 10 days…