Unsent text message to Jada

Do you remember the first time we kissed? It was the best first kiss I ever had. I know you asked me not to call or text you again, I hope you’re happier now without me

It’s been twenty years. We’ve both moved on, both built completely separate lives, and both raised children of our own. It’s been fifteen years since you stopped by my work on your way home from basic training—you were just passing through my state, but you didn't have to stop. Yet you did. It's was the last time I…

i don't... get it. why are you hanging out with all these young people? it's making you really weird and immature. i don't really like who you became

I don't know if deep down somewhere you have the capacity to realise how much damage you've done to me.

One moment you're a sweet angel to me and then BAM! D day!

It's a very bad day today, I'm struggling with keeping sober and not ******* ******. You've helped me not leave this world so many times. Thank you so much.

But…

it's really hard for me when i try to vent about my mom and you take it as a personal attack against you because i make it vague. i make it vague because it's kindof embarassing

i really need an outlet for the zillions of little things i think after having to spend so much time with her. the more you interpret them as…

At one point I saw you as my first love, my possible future and someone I look up to. Due to our incompatibilities, we decided to end it and to not pursue anything and we even remained as friends. It took a while but I moved on, and I was hoping you did too. However you keep on giving me hints about how you still want…