Unsent text message to Kelsey

i don't... get it. why are you hanging out with all these young people? it's making you really weird and immature. i don't really like who you became

I don't know if deep down somewhere you have the capacity to realise how much damage you've done to me.

One moment you're a sweet angel to me and then BAM! D day!

It's a very bad day today, I'm struggling with keeping sober and not ******* ******. You've helped me not leave this world so many times. Thank you so much.

But…

it's really hard for me when i try to vent about my mom and you take it as a personal attack against you because i make it vague. i make it vague because it's kindof embarassing

i really need an outlet for the zillions of little things i think after having to spend so much time with her. the more you interpret them as…

At one point I saw you as my first love, my possible future and someone I look up to. Due to our incompatibilities, we decided to end it and to not pursue anything and we even remained as friends. It took a while but I moved on, and I was hoping you did too. However you keep on giving me hints about how you still want…

I was never asking you to be perfect . And your fear that it I left for you that you wouldn’t be enough … All I’ve ever wanted was to be loved fully . To look at the stars with someone who doesn’t have a doubt it there mind that im the one . I don’t care about the money I don’t care about the car or the house . All…

My one birthday wish would be for you to wrap your arms around me again from behind…one more time. One more kiss. I miss you.