Unsent text message to Mason

Given the option to be a better person and change for the good or leave. Choosing the latter is so disillusioning yet expected.

Humans will forever be consistently disappointing.

It’s amazing **** it Phenomenal The woman I use to lay next to Doesn’t even want to be Around me I don’t exist, we don’t exist Like it never happened Just some strangers with some memories What did I do More like what didn’t I do Love her Like she was Phenomenal

When I lost control, she lost respect Sad she gone or mad…

Now that she’s single it seems, you and her will date…

I remember you telling me about your guys’ interaction and I was like oh she’s flirting with you.. my own coworker… my friend.

Mark my words.

I have no way to contact you, so this is my message into the void. All the best to you 💖

It meant everything. It meant too much. I couldn't deal. I was so close to ending everything. I know thats not an excuse for my behavior. I know you probably don't care to hear any of this anymore. Its been too long. I know I was wrong. I know all of this was wrong. But I miss you. I think about you all the time. I'm…

I still care, I still desire, I still want, I still crave, I still hunger, I still thirst.

If I could have you just once more I would drown myself within you so I would never have to experience the desperation again. I would grasp so tightly the separation between us would blur. I would sink my teeth into you and stake…