Unsent text message to Linda

It meant everything. It meant too much. I couldn't deal. I was so close to ending everything. I know thats not an excuse for my behavior. I know you probably don't care to hear any of this anymore. Its been too long. I know I was wrong. I know all of this was wrong. But I miss you. I think about you all the time. I'm…

I still care, I still desire, I still want, I still crave, I still hunger, I still thirst.

If I could have you just once more I would drown myself within you so I would never have to experience the desperation again. I would grasp so tightly the separation between us would blur. I would sink my teeth into you and stake…

Ughhh..... how I do miss you & love you so.... I think I may be crazy after all. All I think about is you.... Want you terribly. Need you. Xoxo

I have no concept of how you feel. I have no idea what you actually think about me as a person. I really don't have any right to judge you for your decisions.

I hope that if things play out and you aren't happy down the road that we are in a place that we can talk comfortably with one another. I still have love for…

You are the reason I kept returning like a dog to its vomit. You were the habit I couldn't break. But I am completely done pouring into your cup now that mine is drained.

It’s clear you don't care. Not even a single bit. Now I'm left facing my friends to whom I defended you all this time when they all warned me this…

What I am to you.= Nothing

Why do I keep thinking you want anything other knowing I'm here waiting for you?