Unsent text message to Emily

You are the reason I kept returning like a dog to its vomit. You were the habit I couldn't break. But I am completely done pouring into your cup now that mine is drained.

It’s clear you don't care. Not even a single bit. Now I'm left facing my friends to whom I defended you all this time when they all warned me this…

What I am to you.= Nothing

Why do I keep thinking you want anything other knowing I'm here waiting for you?

So ready for you again. Oh how Ive missed every part of you. We can do **** stuff. I want to hear you say my name as im taking every part of you. I want to whisper your name in your ear. I am craving you xxx

Well P you thought u could treat me like gardbage bc who else would want me anyways. You thought i couldn't do any better than you. Hell thats even what i thought for a minute or two. But maybe thats not the case after all. I guess maybe this old man still has got a little something left. I didn't have to settle for…

Can't believe we will have our last conversation tonight. I am scared H. Very much scared of losing that hope I was holding for you all these days. For the last time I am going to ask you if you are coming back or if you are going to let go of the most beautiful thing that ever happened to me. Maybe for you it was not…

Do you remember that night when we went out drinking and then walked all over in the cold to the other place with the live music? And then even after we got back home, we kept texting like we both didn't want the night to end. I literally keep thinking about it cuz I had so much fun and sometimes wonder if it even…