Unsent text message to Jesse

I was reading someone’s post and the closing to it was “if it was meant to be, then it would’ve been”.

I can’t read the future, but the truth in that statement is haunting.

If we were meant to be, or you were meant to remain here with me; it would’ve been - You would’ve been.

You’ll never respond, and I know it. It’s…

I'm not so sad anymore. I miss you 🩵 but I can look at the moon and hope you're not sad either. I remember when we had stopped talking before you told me that it hurt so much to look at moon so you stopped looking at it. There's no way you're going to keep your eyes away from the moon tonight. It's just as beautiful…

what happened to you that even love spoken softly sounded like hurt to you? That you translated "I miss you" into "You're not good enough." I have tried to blame myself; believe me, I did. But I can't. I go back to our old messages, and there's just so much compassion and kindness. And that's what felt dangerous to…

I miss you. I haven't seen you in a few weeks but just seeing you is enough for me. When you compliment me or are nice to me when you talk to me it makes me so happy. I honestly wish to one day be in a relationship with you. I'm starting to have breathing issues because of my cigarette smoking. If my difficulty…

I don’t think I could ever love again, I don’t have any love to give anymore.

I don’t have words for whatever it is we had I wonder about all of the what ifs But at the end of the day, people are people & We are all weird.

We never put an official title on whatever we were. Undeclared best friend type of friendship? Two people in limerence with one another? A work connection that grew to be so…