Unsent text message to Lucas

Still waiting for my birthday present

I want to congratulate you on your new found success and happiness in your life. Isn't it a wonderful and beautiful feeling, especially when you aren't the one who doesn't have to pick up the broken pieces of what was left behind. I aspire to be as selfish as you, hurting anyone and destroying others on your way to…

I thought your committee did all this so you could hate me… lies and deception works the opposite way..

Uno reverse

I've told you that we are similar. I know you find it hard to believe but its true. Its bc of that I love you so deeply. Its not bc you are attractive or that I am attracted to you. No that just makes our friendship fun. No. The reason I love you, is bc you have the same heart. You guard it the way you do and act the…

Every day, it gets easier to understand that you weren’t willing to pay the price my love would have cost you.

You had, and still have, more important things to you.

I’m starting to learn how to live with that knowledge.

10 years of a life built together. I Wish you understood what kind of dedication that is to a person. I Wish it wasn’t so easy for you to just throw away. I Wish you understood why I had to go no contact in order to protect my peace. I know it hurts you that I don’t reply when you text me messages about missing me and…