Unsent text message to Megan

I still check your Spotify all the time to see what you're listening to, sometimes we are listening to the same playlist and it just makes me yearn..

Also stop listening to your sad playlist, it makes me want to talk to you and make sure you're okay.

Baby cakes, loverface, love mumfin....You guacward dirt bag, how could you? Was any of it ever true?? Living without knowing what I once believed with my soul is, torture. As mad, no... disappointed, as I am; I still protect and defend you when your name gets brought up. I also tell the truth. You chose for the truth…

How I am just to leave me on delivered is a special kind of cruel. I am thoroughly disgusted and continue to be & the more I see and hear of you. Maybe who I love is gone, that’s what I am actually fearful of. What I struggle with is a painful struggle and I know I had your love for a long time and I took it for…

How have you not figured this out yet? It's been nearly a year. This is so simple. Come on.

We can fix this.

One chat. Just give me that. One long walk on the downs.

Aren't you curious about why all of this is happening? Don't you want to see if we can make it…

I know how you think s, but yaa know I like myself and I think im pretty. So you can kiss my *** - j

I’ve thought about it. Texting you but what would I even say? I think about handing you a letter on the train. Recently while we ride the train I just look at you and try to speak but I can’t. I’m pretty sure you side eyed me last time. I don’t even know if you know who I am. We only talked online. The thing is I am…