Unsent text message to Ethan

Missing you, fantasizing, reminiscing. Thinking about the what ifs, the maybes, the past, and future. It's all useless. Fantasizing for me through the day. Missing you made me feel less lonely. Reminiscing helped me not lose my mind and thy it wasnt my imagination. It was all for nothing. At this point doing any of…

You cheated on me and we built a life togther and now you get to be happy in a relationship with someone else and idk how to feel, I think I feel more sad and mad that you get to live happily and move on like 3 yrs dont matter while im here spending this whole year trying to fix myself, you get to be serious with ur…

hi. i hope it’s not too weird for me to message you after all this time. i want to apologize for how i treated you in the past. my behavior was emotionally abusive. back then i saw myself as a victim but that wasn’t the reality. your actions towards me were simply a reaction to the mistreatment i subjected you to. i…

yk my parents still think we’re together. they know we broke up but they think we got back with each other. i kept it that way bc i was scared of how they’d react when i asked them to buy gifts and other things for you. i miss you. ill still love you even if you dont love me anymore. all i want is to see you shine…

I know it's too late and there's no going back but I'd do anything to change that night. To listen to you. To not react. To not push things so far. To let you say your piece the next day without being so upset and reacting.

It's the biggest regret of my life. I would give anything for another chance. I'm hurting every…

I read between the lines,

Hoping you've left something there for me,

Because that's where I hide secrets for you.