Unsent text message to Nicole

I don't know how to stop thinking about you. If you ever asked me how I am, I'd tell you everything- all the embarrassing thoughts, maladaptive daydreams, tear-stained pages about just you. I LOVE my solitude, but you have disrupted my peace and contentment with it. I've never felt this irrational or illogical. At…

...is reliving all of the terrible moments and thinking to myself that I could still fix everything. Looking at each horrible thing you said and did and then feeling like a failure for not being able to remedy the issues. Imagining how even now, after everything that has happened... what a triumphant tale of…

But I am falling more and more for you each day that passes, and I can't help it... When you first messaged me after finding out about my terminal illness, you had no intention of starting something with me. You only wanted to wish me well. But we started talking, and every day since have been the best days of my…

I wish you were here to lovingly tease me about it. But regardless, I am excited! I’m getting chic fil a. I’m going all out tho because I’m so hungry. Spicy sandwich, diet dr pep, fries, brownie AND a small side of Mac.

Except I think my body’s craving beef but idc.

That idgaf if you wanna catch a show by yourself, I love my alone time and u thought you’d never leave.

On another note, I hope you remember there’s a dirty little **** waiting for you at home with enough pent up aggression to **** an entire colony of all your *****-

Just so you know- All ***** are Given if they wished…

11:11 don’t know what you are talking about but maybe it’s time to tell me something that I should have known long ago