Unsent text message to Grant

Do you remember the first time you smiled?How about the first time you actually told someone 'I love you' without wanting to hear that back? -it's actually very hard to do it .I expect my cat to respond if I say it.So how come I know so much about it and still crave an honest love? A quiet life and to shout from a…

Fix this awkwardness between us, but I’m not sure how. Really wish you had confided in me about some things, no matter how deep or embarrassing. Wish I wasn’t so sensitive and able to read people’s vibes, you’ve got a lot going on and are maybe not ready to share the depths of the ******** yet, take your time, I’m not…

I can feel you tugging on the side of my shirt. I hear you calling me. “Come, come” I can hear you saying it. Literally.

I mean this in the nicest way possible. I’m not ******* coming. Stop it.

I don't mean safe like nothing bad could happen

I mean I could finally stop pretending I was okay all the time

I could be tired. needy. quiet. annoying. I could tell you things I probably would've kept to myself with anyone else

And now that's probably the part I miss most…

Hey i know i haven't been too nice here lately. It feels like I'm overflowing with hate right now. I just feel angry every waking moment. I see your doing fine. ******* that elf looking little dude. I mean seriously is he even 5 foot tall. He is like a tatted up little garden gnome. He tries to talk to me everyday…

I replied and I get a what? Yes I said what I said. You used horrendous, manipulative tactic to keep me hooked then had the audacity to say you love me and then you act like this.