Unsent text message to Daniel

Fix this awkwardness between us, but I’m not sure how. Really wish you had confided in me about some things, no matter how deep or embarrassing. Wish I wasn’t so sensitive and able to read people’s vibes, you’ve got a lot going on and are maybe not ready to share the depths of the ******** yet, take your time, I’m not…

I can feel you tugging on the side of my shirt. I hear you calling me. “Come, come” I can hear you saying it. Literally.

I mean this in the nicest way possible. I’m not ******* coming. Stop it.

I don't mean safe like nothing bad could happen

I mean I could finally stop pretending I was okay all the time

I could be tired. needy. quiet. annoying. I could tell you things I probably would've kept to myself with anyone else

And now that's probably the part I miss most…

Hey i know i haven't been too nice here lately. It feels like I'm overflowing with hate right now. I just feel angry every waking moment. I see your doing fine. ******* that elf looking little dude. I mean seriously is he even 5 foot tall. He is like a tatted up little garden gnome. He tries to talk to me everyday…

I replied and I get a what? Yes I said what I said. You used horrendous, manipulative tactic to keep me hooked then had the audacity to say you love me and then you act like this.

About us in months. I came this way to try and move past but the reminders are still there. There are little pieces of you in things I do. Idk if I should drop them because they are reminding me of you. But the thing is they are in my few healthy habits. So maybe that’s what loving someone does they become ingrained…