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You'll never see this. Doubt you use this app. I'm just a loser, I guess. Probably for the best. Its nice to vent a bit.
You make me feel delusional. I feel like I pick up on some kind of "woops no I wasnt looking at you, but I sure was and I'll do it again" game we play. I just dont understand it. It's been a while since we were in a capacity where it was possible. I've missed a few morning meetings. Have you wondered where I've been?
Your gorgeous eyes seem to wander to me, and maybe your brain realizes and you snap away. "OH ****, he's looking again."
But you have someone at home. I don't, so I keep entertaining it .
I made a point, for a while., to avoid it. To respect a gorgeous girl in what appears to be a happy relationship.
Then there we were again. Across from each other. I let my eyes wander a bit, and there you were. Looking at me. Look away quickly. And the rest of the event, we kept it going. No words. No acknowledgement. Just tiny stolen glances.
Good lord, your smile is something else. God really took his time with you. How lucky am I to even exist in the same place, same time as you?
Am I a running joke in your social circle? Is there something I'm missing? Probably.
Is it contempt in those beautiful eyes and that smile that glows like the morning sun once it passes over horizon?
Is it disgust? I havent shaved my face in a bit. Looking pretty scruffy. Surprisingly havent been written up for it (yet)
Is there a fine line we're toeing and I'm just too slow to fully grasp it?
Were you waiting for me to say something yesterday?
I never see you smoke. Is that why you chose the cigarette? Stay a bit longer, see if he cracks? Just wanted a smoke and I should get outta my stupid big ol' head?
Did you get up to leave right after I put out my smoke in hopes I'd catch you on the way out? Was it just time to head out, because you've got to get back to him?
I'm trying to respect your space, you two seem happy together. I'm no homewrecker. I'd break a few rules for you though, if you asked.
I want you to know you can fall into me, if you want.
I know I'm probably reading into this way too much. Delusion on a grand scale, I guess. Thats alright, I've been told I lost a few screws. Been trying to tighten them up, but those ******* keep on coming loose.
Anyways. Have a great day off. Hope you slept better than I did.
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