Unsent text message to Chase

I keep spiraling between hate and care. I keep wanting things to hurt you but I can't even properly hate you and still hope that things work out in your favor. I hate that you occupy so much of my inner mind but I still find myself angry find myself smiling and find myself hurting almost every single day. I hope that…

You’re a lil ***** fr. All you did was lie and all I wanted was an apology. You want me to apologize for going through your phone? Only because I caught you talking to other girls. You have the audacity to say that I’m manipulating you into talking to me? You approached me and begged to be in a relationship with me. I…

i can feel it lingering in my bones

we aren't finished yet.

sigh

I said I miss you alot today. Because I heard a song that we both love. Galaxie by blind melon. When I heard it at first a rush of emotion flooded up from my belly. And in that moment I wished we were in the car singing loud, smokong weed, no cares. But you dont want me anymore. I ****** that up and im sorry. I did…

I hope I forget about your face, the way you smile makes me ache, the way you laugh makes me cry. The thought of you not loving me makes me sick. I hope everything you made me feel, the sorrows and pain, the happiness and joy. I hope all of this was real. But I hope I can forget the way your love makes everything so…

I got plans this weekend to celebrate this milestone coming up.

You want to come or do I need to find somebody else?