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I have not been active in the dating scene for years. I’m on the dating apps, but nothing came out of it. Until I met you. When we met, I didn’t really feel anything, not worry, not excitement, just nothing. I saw you more as an acquaintance, one I would meet once and never speak to again. But you pursued, and now we’ve been talking for months, despite the distance.
As I got to know you more, I’ve actually gotten to like you. And now I can’t let a day go by without talking to you and I hate it.
I have worked hard for the past six years getting to where I am now. I’m a secure and stable woman, and I’m not supposed to be falling for this kind of relationship again. But here we are. What are we even? What am I to you? A placeholder, a rebound?
For once in my life, I want to be actually chosen. I am exhausted of constantly comparing myself to others.
If only I have the courage to ask, but I’m too afraid to lose you completely, so I settle for the crumbs.
Ah ****.
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