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Batman I have an embarrassing confession I looked at your tictok pfp again I just wanted to see if it still broke my heart it does I don’t know why I can’t let you go we were toxic all we did was fight and hurt each other So why can’t I stand seeing you with her? Why do I love you and hate you at the same time Why do I live in constant anxiety over you wondering if I’ll ever hear from you again At first I thought I missed the attention then I started getting attention from someone else and still can’t stop thinking about you Then I thought just need closure but I did that so why do I play the conversations in my head so clearly Why do I need you so badly it physically hurts my heart beats out of my chest when I think of you I think I love you But I still hate you for doing this to me I liked how when we were on call not texting we could talk so openly to each other I loved that I could open up to you I wish I’d known you were going to do this I miss the good times with you I’m not going to beg you to come back and as of Tuesday even these letters that you’ll probably never see will stop because I can’t stand the heartbreak of knowing you can come back and choose not to it’s easier to just close off any way for you to come back
I love you -c
PS the dream of running away with you still lives in my heart
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