Unsent text message to John

can we cuddle please? I’ll be big spoon. I’m very concerned about you. I don’t want that you should ever hurt. 😢 Please don‘t hurt yourself. You can do whatever you want to me. Just don’t hurt yourself anymore. Please. I promise.

I’ll be good. 😞

Every post I see about crushes, or unrequited love, im secretly scanning every line to see if ur confessing ur feelings on here like I am for u.

I search and scan every line for some kind of sign. Sometimes I get so delusional, I actually think it's u, until I find 1 detail that doesn't fit. And im a little…

That’s it, that’s the text 😵‍💫😵‍💫

I want to message you, but I know if I do, you’ll either tell me how quickly and how much you’ve moved on and replaced me with frankly whoever. Even when we were together you said you wish you could cheat on me and you always told me how easy it would be for you to replace me and find someone new, and you used to say…

i know i sent you an email with an update, but i'm really struggling tonight.

i have a feeling you are too. we had two challenging days this week. we always struggle with separation after difficult topics. we never got to talk about intimacy, as planned, but next week... :)

writing here really helps me, but it's getting…

Please don’t reach out to me anymore . Not even to be nasty, or use me as a punching bag. It’s not necessary and the real reason I haven’t moved on. You and your 27 returns. You don’t even like me, you’ve said that yourself, and freely to other people. And ive never been your friend so to continue doing this, for any…