Unsent text message to Anthony

you are ten gallons short of a hat.

you like to pretend i did something terrible to you so that people take your side when we fight, but at this point your accusations are so pathetic and stale that it's really just the same two people fellating you for the same stupid stuff they've always fellated you for and it's…

It makes me so ******* sucker as I tell you for the third time how I feel and again you show me a coldness as if I wasn’t telling you that I feel miserable, every time you feel bad I put my hand on my heart and squeeze my head to be able to tell you something at least coherent that maybe it doesn’t make you feel…

I may act immaturely, but I will always acknowledge my wrongs when I recognize them. I want to start by saying that while I am a hurt person, I do not hurt people—at least never intentionally. When I failed to reassure you, it didn't come from a lack of trust. It came from hurt. I’m used to people leaving, but my…

I still really miss you. We weren’t exes, strangers, or even slept together anything like that. Just both avoidants, I guess. But we definitely bonded and I ruined it because I got scared my feelings got too deep and pushed you away. But it’s been 2 months now. All you did was leave me alone which is the respectful…

After 22 years together, I am completely lost and hurt that you are letting everything end this way just because you refuse to be honest with me for once.

When you won't tell the truth, what else am I supposed to think? It leaves me feeling like you never truly loved me, like I was never enough, and that’s why you…

I wish you knew how much this has affected me.

Not trying to pinpoint blame because their is no one to blame but myself.

I blame myself because I should have known better.

I knew where this would lead, I knew id eventually end up hurt. I knew it was too good to be true…