Unsent text message to Emily

To my twitch, to whom in which i betrayed multiple times being unfaithful towards. I want you to know i definitely regret all my actions. I wish i had just treated you the way you deserved to be treated, and stuck it out with you. There were so many times after my departure i wanted to come running back to you and…

It would be embarrassing, desperate, ugly, me going over my own boundaries. But I do wish you would reach out and apologize for real. You aren’t capable of that though, you only say sorry because you want forgiveness, and even then I feel like you’re trying to provoke anger. I can’t believe I’m such a mess, I hate…

thank you for the email today - made me smile :)

sometimes i can't sleep because i'm so happy to be seeing you soon.

found some great music for us tomorrow. for a great ...conversation..................

With love.

D,

how messed up is it that I can spend the night with such a great guy and then go home and think about you? why am I still thinking about and wanting someone that I meant nothing to? I just want to be released from this mental prison but you are always there in my mind lurking.

K

I’m sorry you had to be so much for us. I love you.

I don’t know how I can be so haunted by you when you were so cruel to me. You ended things so abruptly. We were friends for 3 years. The feelings I had for you were deep and complex. I just wish I could stop thinking about you. I’m going through one of the hardest periods of my life and you just….left me. I’m losing…