Unsent text message to Mary

This time of year reminds me of when we first met. I still look back on it so fondly but it’s bittersweet when I know I tainted those memories in ur mind. I can’t believe that was two years ago.

I still hope we can reconnect one day. I’ve started therapy and medication. I’m moving out of the apartment. My grades have…

No, I don’t want to start a business with any of you. Yes, I’m aware that you’re just trying to figure out where I’ve put the large X in the sand. No, I’m not stupid and frankly it’s embarrassing any time any of you nonchalantly bring it up. Just stop. I know everyone in the R.O.F. Group. The game is over.

That we’ll find our way back to each other again after almost exactly 5 years (in December) since I stopped talking to you. Maybe, one day I stumble upon your account or you stumble upon mine and we somehow end up talking to each other again.

The last thing I'd want in life is to lose the person I share deepest with, my best friend.Tell me everything, please. End it all or can I still make things better?

I miss you so ******* much, I wish i could have you in my life even as just a friend. You mean so much to me it ******* blows, im always wondering if i mean the same to you.

I wish i could see you again, i wish you were in my life. I know it wouldnt be the same but its okay with me. Getting this all out is either…

Sometimes You just.... appear in My quiet moments. ♥️

A thought..

A smile..

Something You said…