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This time of year reminds me of when we first met. I still look back on it so fondly but it’s bittersweet when I know I tainted those memories in ur mind. I can’t believe that was two years ago.
I still hope we can reconnect one day. I’ve started therapy and medication. I’m moving out of the apartment. My grades have been good and I feel like things are on track. The time we last were in connection brought a lot of things I needed to work on to my light and even though I was in a dark place I’m glad. You held a mirror to all the things I was ashamed of.
Even when I’m happy and satisfied with my life I still have you lingering in my thoughts most days. I sometimes see people who resemble you when I’m out or get a faint whiff of ur scent. I look up but never get the satisfaction of it being your face. All your features are something I have a spot in my heart for now.
Sometimes I wonder if you joked about putting a spell on me or if you were serious. But it’s true I feel so different for you than anyone else I have had a connection with.
I want to hear the sound of ur voice and ur dumb jokes even tho I call u cringe to our friends. I still adore it in a way.
I do see a timeline where we could be it for each other in my mind.
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