Unsent text message to Isabella

I hope every single day that today will be the day. That today my phone will finally ring, or my messenger will finally ding, or you'll finally show up at my door. Yet, it never does and it never will. It's depressing knowing that a single person has that much control over my emotional state. Even more so when I…

My outlook on you is always gonna forever now be something similar to "**** - pink guy", or along the lines of at the nicest "sueco- p.o.s". You choose this everyday, blame yourself.

You can help yourself you know, you don’t have to track me anymore, your obsession is pathetic. Narcissistic and demanding, no matter how much you think your support is support, you just ******* cut me down and pointed to the hospital. You blamed everyone but yourself, everyone who cared about me could see it. In the…

I know you probably hate me and or I’m blocked but you asked me if I would still feel this way in two or three weeks after you left. The answer is yes I still love you just as much as when I said it that day on the dock. If you’d ever allow me the chance to make things right with us I’d do so in a heartbeat.

Woke up and once again jumped straight into this thread. Trying to process, trying to ruminate in some fictitious world.

The truth is, we didn’t work out. The truth is I had this constant feeling that you didn’t prioritize me correctly. The truth is that I communicated this to you and you still weren’t able to change…

But thats ok I'm goin on vacay