Unsent text message to Jordan

I keep remembering slices of our life from before things got bad. Even back then I saw the cracks, I just thought that either we could overcome them or I could continue to pretend they were fine. I resent you. I’m sure you resent me. But I keep thinking about the time when we were everything to each other.

Do you rememb…

It’s been nearly 2 and half years. We’ve both changed so much, but in my mind, you’re still the same person you were when we were together.

I try to rationalise, put what happened into perspective, get angry at you, even. Convince myself that you’re not who I thought you were. That we just grew into different…

"Strangers Now" – Buffalo Traffic Jam

“…If you need me, just call my phone

’cause I once called your heart my home

I know we’re strangers now…

I still think about you everyday. I miss your daily updates and rants. Just sitting on the phone for hours talking about everything and nothing. I miss waking up and cuddling you before falling back asleep again in your arms. I miss just looking at eachother with a stupid cheeky look. I miss your presence and…

remember you said in 6 months we could reevaluate things?

I miss you..

Almost 2 weeks without a word. I've realized now I damaged us too. I stayed too long, I allowed you to constantly cross my boundaries. I forgive you honestly because I need to move on. And forgiving you is the easy part. I have to learn to forgive and be kind to myself now. I'm so ridiculously mad at myself because I…