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Is it so hard to accept that I am not the enemy? That the narrative you've created from your own insecurities and self doubt might actually have fallacies that are stemming from fear more so than fact? Is there any way to talk to you without it being taken personally, or assumed I am out to get you, or attacking? I've tried to be conscientious that you are extremely sensitive and I've tried my hardest to word things and be careful with my tone and my deliveries, but no matter what I do, you get defensive. Even if I'm just telling you about my day or something that is going on in my life somehow you think you're responsible even though I never blamed you. Is it possible for me to have emotions and thoughts and dreams without it in some way making you feel some type of way. You say you want a relationship where you can be accepted for who you are, but you leave no room for me to be who I am. I've edited and suppressed myself, silenced myself to make you more comfortable. I've reflected, changed times, changed behavior, changed mindset, and adjusted a hundred times to make you feel safer, yet you still get defensive, still withdraw. I can't feel, speak or behave naturally, without fear of upsetting you. I've looked in the mirror countless times to see where I can do better, but do you? Do you ever think you confuse fear with fact or turn assumptions into truth? Have you ever looked in the mirror to see what you're projecting?
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