Unsent text message to Jasmine

Hi.

I’ve been thinking for a while about whether I should reach out to you, because I really don’t want to interfere in your life.

I’m not expecting a reply or anything from you, I just feel like I need to get things off my chest in order to move on.

I don’t know what you know about me, and I don’t know what happened…

You were perfect in the beginning. You are still perfect when you want something from me. It’s all a lie. My mind is tricked into thinking that version of you is back. It never lasts long. My mind can’t grasp how different you actually are.

I have to remind myself that this is the real you. The one who ignores me after…

Guess who’s been up probably for way too long

When I asked you to take your time and think, I meant it. You’ve done nothing wrong. But I wish you would hurry up. As time passes I only keep missing you. I’d do anything to see your name on my caller ID even at this hour. I know you’re awake, and alone. If you came to see me, could this finally be over? Can I…

I know it's wrong that I shouldn't play along and play the part so well because im bored. I made you feel special and like I really expected more from us then passing the time had you playing house and talking about a future on your land with me being youe wife . It was fun while it lasted. And when it's was over it…

I know it’s ridiculous, but sometimes I get this sick feeling in my stomach now that you aren’t in my life and I search to make sure you didn’t like die or something. I get so freaked by your silence especially after how long it’s been since you’ve said anything and then I go down like a 2 minute panic attack rabbit…