Unsent text message to Taylor

I saw your sister and her family tonight at the community center...

I told my bestie (fellow mom that was there with me) that “i saw my 2nd husbands family over there!” and she laughed and said im crazy. (Let’s be honest im just crazy enough to survive this world!) and then i told her jk it’s my hs ex-bf’s sister…

So yah…

You put a substantial dent in my bank account. I have no regrets. I flicked the bean, bought new clothes, saw incredible architecture, ate incredible meals, drank too much, met new people, and most importantly spent quality time with one of my closest friends. Tomorrow I'll be in Wisconsin to do it all over again…

Here I am thinking of you again. I swear now it's two nights in a row that you appear in my dreams. On one of them we were trying to talk again but it got awkward and I woke up feeling like it was so real. Last night i dreamt of you but we were making fun if each other, jokingly flirting like we used to and being as…

Sometimes I still wonder why you did what you did. I tried my best to make you happy. Even after 2 years since we broke up, I still look back and remember you in small details. I have wondered since then why you would lie to me the whole time. Why did you make me feel like you actually loved me? Was it because you…

As someone who loved regardless of everything.. I am glad to pour into a person I felt deeply for I don’t regret it at all. I show my feelings, I was vulnerable. no matter what it was to you my love is yours to keep. & i’ll always miss you..

"You're not blocked. Just muted." That’s the last thing you said. Words that continue to ring in my head. Why break the silence you choose to maintain? Is playing with my emotions just a sick game? I had no expectations from the start Yet with terms of endearment, I opened my heart You said you loved me, you'd miss me…