Unsent text message to Rachel

if we’re on the same wavelength… Both too afraid to say the words aloud, yet they’re dancing across our eyes every time they lock. Is it just my delusion or is this real? The way your fingers dance across my ***** skin, leaving behind a subtle trail of goosebumps as you press your lips to my forehead and I fall asleep…

Who have taken advantage of my help,

By leaking my truths,

For their own good.

Who have used and abused…

im not going to send this because i know you won’t answer. i just don’t understand why you would tell me something like that. “never talk to you again” ? why??? i thought we were more than that? we had so many talks about breaking up amicably. i understand if you don’t want to be in this relationship anymore but it…

I don’t exist in your mind anymore and you no longer look forward to my afternoon text wishing you a great day. You know longer care how my day has been and you no longer care about my eyes. You no longer want to see me and touch me. You no longer care about my sleep. You no longer care about me eating or not and you…

I just expected another message sent into the void. But you replied. No words - just the pictures of the cats. But I needed that. Idk how to say thank you. My heart flutters so much, I have so much I want to say. I love you. But I promised I’ll shut up. So from now on, maybe for both our sakes, I’ll shut up.

T

i used to laugh at your jokes, i used to love listening to all of rants and yaps about your favorite things. i used to like your rebellion. i used to like sitting in the car with you listening to all of the things you had to say and now i simply don’t. i rather be on my phone scrolling TikTok. i rather be at home in…