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Sometimes I still wonder why you did what you did. I tried my best to make you happy. Even after 2 years since we broke up, I still look back and remember you in small details. I have wondered since then why you would lie to me the whole time. Why did you make me feel like you actually loved me? Was it because you knew I would believe anything you said? There was no point in dating me when I realized you were just embarrassed of me, which is why you kept me hidden. You told me your parents would not let you date until 18, and you dated that girl publicly 5 days after we broke up. You knew you destroyed me because I meant it when I said I loved you.
I never understood you. Why did you always get mad at everything? Sometimes I look back and think I could have endured it better; sometimes I wish I had stayed. But you kept pushing me away so I would break up with you first. Now you have another girlfriend, not your childhood friend you had told me only liked girls. You knew I was not the jealous type of girl, and I hated being controlling, but why did you want me to be like that? You always said I never cared enough about you just because I didn't act that way. I always asked you to be understanding with me because of my strict parents and to stop getting mad when we couldn't spend as much time together. I know I couldn't go out much, and something that always stuck with me was when you said, "I know I have a girlfriend, but it feels like I don't have one." I always felt bad for not being able to go out as much as you wanted and for not making you happy enough. I asked you to be patient, but I guess your friend was more important. I should have suspected when you went out with her every weekend. I did find out about all those couple dates with your friend that you hid from me while we were dating. I know you were cheating on me the whole time.
I still miss you, and I love you so much. You forgot me so easily, and I still haven't moved on. Every time I see you, I get so nervous. I still cry for you, and I don't know if you ever felt bad. Probably not. If you ever see this, I wonder if you remember that song called "Tu falta de querer." You should listen to it.
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