Unsent text message to Carter

You put a substantial dent in my bank account. I have no regrets. I flicked the bean, bought new clothes, saw incredible architecture, ate incredible meals, drank too much, met new people, and most importantly spent quality time with one of my closest friends. Tomorrow I'll be in Wisconsin to do it all over again…

Here I am thinking of you again. I swear now it's two nights in a row that you appear in my dreams. On one of them we were trying to talk again but it got awkward and I woke up feeling like it was so real. Last night i dreamt of you but we were making fun if each other, jokingly flirting like we used to and being as…

Sometimes I still wonder why you did what you did. I tried my best to make you happy. Even after 2 years since we broke up, I still look back and remember you in small details. I have wondered since then why you would lie to me the whole time. Why did you make me feel like you actually loved me? Was it because you…

As someone who loved regardless of everything.. I am glad to pour into a person I felt deeply for I don’t regret it at all. I show my feelings, I was vulnerable. no matter what it was to you my love is yours to keep. & i’ll always miss you..

"You're not blocked. Just muted." That’s the last thing you said. Words that continue to ring in my head. Why break the silence you choose to maintain? Is playing with my emotions just a sick game? I had no expectations from the start Yet with terms of endearment, I opened my heart You said you loved me, you'd miss me…

if we’re on the same wavelength… Both too afraid to say the words aloud, yet they’re dancing across our eyes every time they lock. Is it just my delusion or is this real? The way your fingers dance across my ***** skin, leaving behind a subtle trail of goosebumps as you press your lips to my forehead and I fall asleep…