Unsent text message to Matthew

I’m sorry I don’t have family money to offer to you.

I’m sorry I don’t have family or familial support to treat you like a King.

I’m sorry I don’t earn 6 six figures.

I’m sorry I am too old for your “have a baby” dream…

If you came looking for me on the unsent project, then did you also come looking for me here?

I wish there was a way we could talk.

\- S

Six years, and the silence you left behind is still the loudest thing in every room I walk into.

We were always terrible at staying together. We were a cycle of wreckage and return, leaving each other, bleeding out the distance, and then crawling back to the start because neither of us knew how to survive the quiet…

Sometimes I need someone to be my rock just like I am theirs. Sometimes I get tired too. Sometimes I want something too just some emotions. Just a little bit. I want a vacation from everyone's rock just for a day. Can it be all about me. A day where I don't have to prove myself just a day when I'm me. Someone asks me…

Maybe in another life we are just two cats in love, hiding in the shadows and eating out of a rich couple's dumpster. Maybe then, this wouldn't be so hard. We could just curl up together in the dark, just us, so promise you'll meow at me then, just so I know it's you. But in this life, we have to keep our distance…

Here I am writing about you, wishing you could hear this from me myself but you obviously made it clear you don’t want to talk anymore, since you unfriended me on everything without giving me an explanation nor an answer on why you left without telling me you want to break up. You did say you were on the verge of…