Unsent text message to Adam

Hey

You don't have to respond to this, there isn't any pressure to do so, I swear... I had said a thousand times that I wouldn't reach out again, but I guess I'm **** at keeping promises, even to myself.

Are you okay? I want to ask because honestly... I'm not okay right now. Like really not okay, and if I explain it…

You want to walk that line kind of like Johnny and June did? You want me to be a good boy and stay out of trouble? Do you?

Well, just like Johnny needed to stay on the straight and narrow, perhaps you should make me an offer I cant refuse? You know what I want. Like a lot of men, Johnny needed June to keep him on the…

The Girl in Black

Everybody's dressed for the party,

smiles polished, pretty, bright,

then she walks through the doorway…

I am detaching from you, not because I do not care about you. I want you in every way, but I do not need you. I am whole with or without you. Truly am excited regardless because everytime I detach, something better comes into my reality. And if something better than you comes into my reality, that might be the best…

Hey I miss you. Sorry I was never really a good partner, I was so awkward and quiet. I could never open up to you in the way I wanted because I didn’t want you to view me in a way I couldn’t control. That’s what messed it up though. If I was just honest in moments where I felt off. If I just spoke up when I thought…

I just feel alone rn.

The person I really want to reach out has left me. I’ve finally removed them from my life in every way that matters but I’m still hung up on them tbh.

I know it takes time… I just feel so betrayed. I don’t know if I can trust anyone ever again.

It’s always superficial. It’s always what can they get…