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Hey I miss you. Sorry I was never really a good partner, I was so awkward and quiet. I could never open up to you in the way I wanted because I didn’t want you to view me in a way I couldn’t control. That’s what messed it up though. If I was just honest in moments where I felt off. If I just spoke up when I thought you said something that made me insecure. You never knew you were really doing anything because I was so anxious I just couldn’t speak the **** up. I wasn’t even good at intimacy. I mean I tried sometimes but I was so in my head 24/7 I couldn’t even do that without feeling insecure. Seriously why would you even come back? There is nothing I bring to the table so of course you’re fine without me. That’s not to be self deprecating or anything it’s the truth. I was a **** partner. I wasn’t the worst but I was barely bare minimum. I wasn’t on your level ever. Just a sensitive quiet anxious kid compared to you. You have always been so sure of who you are and what you want and I just wasn’t. I know you felt it. That’s why you broke up with me. You said you just weren’t my person but I’m sure we both know it’s the other way around. To me you are THE person. You were my everything. You are still everything to me despite the fact that you don’t want to or even really deserve to be. I’m glad you were my first. I wish you were my last. I love you.
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