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I fought tooth and nail, but nothing was ever good enough for you. You said you were better than my kids dad? No not really.. just because you didnt hit me doesnt mean you didnt break me. Except in 1 matter you were better and that was you were honest when it came down to you were honest when you got me pregnant. You have broke me more than i ever thought was possible yet you just dont care? I hope my lack of presence snd the what could have beens haunt you. I hope you look for the love you left in everyone after. That one day it hits how much i gave. How genuine i was to you. You seen a side nobody else ever had.. and i hate you for lying about what you felt to get it. I gave and gave you you. Even when i had nothing i still did everything i could to make your life easier.. you were supposed to be it. Rather it was my issues or yours you could have at the very least said it to my face instead of hiding behind a screen. Even after everything i prayed everyday for you. Hoping you would open your eyes to what you had when just a few weeks before you were devastated we were no contact.. i got put in meds to try and fix things because you couldnt handle the aptitude of how my issues presented themselves.. i was who i said i was. That never changed even when you did. You said you were too loyal for your own good yet you cheated and got upset i couldn’t just forget about it. That i needed you to reassure me and show me you werent doing it anymore. You went out of your way to make it worse. You lied about everything you possibly could. Why would you wait until i was in love with you to hurt me like this. And trust mr this time was worse than the original im done. Doing it right before my birthday and everything, but taking it back and wanting me to stay the night with you? I tried so ******* hard and you didnt even think i deserved an apology or a face to face breakup. Sad thing is? A piece of me will always love you even i wished i hated you or that i never met you. But thats okay.. you may not care, but what goes around comes back around. You may never find this, but if you do.. just know what you never wanted to happen has happened. I think about you and get sick to my stomach, so i guess i should thank you.
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