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i don’t know why when it comes to you, my brain shuts down and my heart is on autopilot. You are the easiest person to care for. You don’t even have to ask me to help you, Im just on my way every damn time. sacrifice my own comfort for you.
I hope the yearning in my heart stops. i don’t like feeling irrational. I don’t like making a big deal out of each coincidence. I don’t like remembering every little thing you say. I don’t like that I’m hoping you have the same amount of yearning I have. but you don’t. don’t you? I don’t like most things that come with liking you but I sure as hell love you.
i love you in your bad days. Im proud of your good days. your dark humor makes me laugh like it’s the wittiest thing. I love the way your eyes pierces through my soul. like you see every inch of my being but you don’t make me feel bad about the bad parts. we had our thursday to sundays but I wanted you in my mondays. I want you in the quiet moments because it’s the only thing that makes me feel safe. I want to go grocery shopping with you and buy junk. I want mornings with the coffee you make that’s my favorite cause it’s made by you. I want to go to work and have someone to look forward to coming home. I want to see you firving our kids to watch the classics we grew up watching. How you would convince them to sing and dance And pursue their hearts desire. But instead…
I’ll watch you get married and have kids of your own and never tell them about the girl in the rainy august of ’25. you’ll become the father you never had and you’ll teach them love by committing to choosing her everyday. You’ll tell them that she was always the one . And Ill meet you every after a few months or year not because we planned to but because the universe is trying to bring us together. i understand now that it happens not because I need to learn a lesson. It’s because I need to teach you one. I hope the next time I see you I remember to ask you if you’re happy. Cause thats the only way I’ll be able to let you go in relief. Seeing you happy makes me happy.
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