Unsent text message to Amber

Yo girl, i dunno if u remember me but u were behind me on my first day of class, the first class of the semester. You're freaking me out. The teacher said she didnt know you. Shes the leader of the program. You would need to take her first semester classes before the second ones. So what the **** are u doing there in…

Unconditional love does not come with conditions. Ur presence heart and mind do. Love and care should be reciprocated.

Do you know how much pain this situation has caused me? I actually hope that you don't. I don't wish for you to feel bad.

I cried myself to sleep for two months while knowing that you are lying next to her. I think it's strange that even during all that sadness, I could not forget about the happy memories I have of…

I thought I was doing so well. I hadn’t reached out in almost 3 months. And then this morning I was looking for an email I sent and saw an email I sent last weekend in the middle of the night to you. I had taken an Ambien and don’t remember even typing the message, much less sending it. I am so mad at myself. I’m glad…

i told you. I told you from the beginning not to say things you don’t mean. But you said them anyway. And eventually i began to believe you. I believed you when you said i was the one you wanted all along. I believed jt when you said you wanted a life with me. That was so scary for me. No one ever loved me like you…

I wonder if you have found me here.. you will know it's me. That's fine though, I am writing these to you. I think I will delete this account soon though. But in case you are reading now, there is something on my mind today..

Does everyone know what is going on but me? All the neighbours? Everyone hiding it from me…