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This whole “no contact” thing has made me miss the good times. It hasn’t made me remember the bad, or all the reasons things ended. But now that you’ve reached out to me, even over something so stupid and insignificant, it’s made me realise something very clearly: I don’t want you in my life anymore. It’s done. I don’t want this. I don’t want you. I deserve better than what we had, and I deserve better than the way you made me feel. The truth is, even the tiniest bit of contact makes me unhappy and I didn’t even reply, imagine!! It gives me anxiety. It makes me overthink, spiral, and fall back into a mindset I fought so hard to get out of. I can’t do that to myself again. I won’t. I will never reach out to you. Not now, not later, not when I miss you, not when I’m lonely. You can forget about hearing from me again. In your dreams — but even then, I’ll make sure it’s a nightmare. You were no good for me, and I finally understand that. So please, leave me alone. Let me move on. Let me heal. I don’t want to go back to who I was when I was with you.
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