Unsent text message to Alyssa

I regret how things happened. But I dont regret walking away.

Hi X,

I believe people like you work a lot, and at this stage, you require an executive assistant to manage your calendar, meetings, and other daily responsibilities.

I would hereby like to apply for the position of Executive Assistant.

My qualifications include…

There comes a day when you rectify who you are with who you want to be with. And I can't make those two things coexist.

We hadn't spoken in years. Then one day, something reminded me of you, so I reached out.

A few messages later, we were talking like we'd only missed a weekend.

You tried so hard to cut my legs out from under me, to keep me small and weak so you could keep me under your control. All the professional sabotage, manipulation, and abuse has no power anymore. Amazing how much easier it is to network and socialize when I'm not constantly being put down or guilted for doing anything…

I’m sorry for everything I did. I know I wasn’t the greatest to you. I’m just happy you’re happy now when you found your love I’m still alone and no one wants me. I feel like an awful person. I wish I could convince myself. I didn’t deserve this.