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I don’t get it. Logically I just feel like I should let all of this go. I just have so much to achieve and learn and energy that can go to helping people… and I want to do that.
I miss you and I actually do care about you. I want you to be okay. I want your soul reassured and well rested. That you know fear and deception have no place in your heart. You are protected.
Maybe I’m not the right person to deliver this message. Maybe no matter what wisdom I have or information I can give you, you’ll still have this underlying parasitic want to stick it inside me. Maybe it’s the only power I have to get what I know through to you. The only avenue I can exist safely within your brain.
I can tell it’s shattered into many compartmentalized pieces and it ******* hurts I have to keep my distance. I don’t want to accidentally trigger anything you’re not ready for. We were never audibly close and I know that’s the confusing part. I never wanted to invade your head in any way, though unconsciously I’m sure I did.
That’s definitely fine we all survive best we can and I’m sorry if you feel robbed of a better way. I get it more than you know. Information is just patterns of cause and effect to me. You’re not a bad person. I hope you feel assured that no matter what bad gets done through you the good will always prevail. It might be a while before it takes itself out but it will happen.
I do question if my rumination is of a romantic nature or true good intent for the capability to help when help is needed. I don’t know what’s moving through me but I know it’s not selfish. Maybe it is. I don’t like many people… I keep wanting to find a reason to dislike you besides the obvious.
I might just unblock you so I can see you liking the posts of my peers that you fantasize about but I think too highly of myself to see it as anything other than pathetic. I wish I could just be offended and move on. My life would be more simple this way, but here I am.
You have a place in this world and that’s for good no matter what anyone tries to convince you of. I’m sure you already have but I just looked up what your name meant the other day and yea, answers are where you look and the creator is everywhere.
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