Unsent text message to Connor

But what I really did was give you an out because you don’t want to reconnect with me. You have made your decision by only thinking about the negatives and seeing me as disposable and I can tell it was all over.

There’s nothing I can do but move on from this situation and from you. I want someone who can accept all of…

I know u have read all my posts. All i want ia for you to talk to me. Just respond. Please. You have hurt me beyond what i even thought was possible. My life revolved around you. I didn't wven speak without thinking about you first. The exact opposite of what u did. All i wanted was to feel like you respected me.

Maybe it's that my pain matched yours, maybe it's the connection I felt to you a year ago. I can't look at you. I still have this stupid draw to you and I hate it. I still hope you'll find me.

You're mean to me, you told me you could never see us together. Maybe I just don't like rejection? I've been rejected before…

Not just best friends but partners. Staying up all night talking until you passed out on the phone. Now I can’t be up past 11 without thinking of you for hours before passing out. Thank you for the happy birthday. Maybe in the next life.

you and I are going to a concert soon. ive known for a while that this particular show is going to be hard on me emotionally. many of the songs on the set list are tied to bad memories or people who have hurt me greatly.

we sat down today and made bracelets to hand out at the show. we talked, we laughed, and I havent…

I love you. But I understand our condition. I understand why we are far apart. We are like fire and ice. I made mistakes, and you made mistakes. Many of which we may deem is unforgivable. That is hard to get out. I desperately wished that you could understand me. Put yourself in my shoes as I had done for you several…