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I do everything I can for you. I give you my whole heart, my love, my time, and everything I have, yet somehow I’m still left feeling unwanted, unloved, and so alone. I want you, all of you. I want your love, your affection, your attention, your intimacy, and to feel like you actually want me the way I want you. But lately, I feel like you only want me when you need something from me. I don’t feel wanted ******** or emotionally, and it hurts more than I can explain. I feel like I’ve lost my best friend, my partner, and the person I thought I could turn to for everything. I’ve tried everything I can think of to save us, to bring us closer, and to make things work, but nothing seems to change. Maybe all my trying has only pushed you further away, and that breaks my heart. So, as much as it hurts me, I think I need to let you go. Because hearing you say you love me just isn’t enough anymore. I need to feel it. I need to feel valued, wanted, appreciated, and loved through your actions, not just your words. I would give you the world if I could. I really would. I’ve given you so much of my heart because I genuinely wanted us, and I wanted a life where we chose each other every day. I never expected perfection. I just wanted to feel like I mattered to you, like our relationship was worth fighting for, too. I’m sorry for the times my hurt, my frustration, or my desperation to fix us may have made things harder. I was never trying to push you away. I was trying to save something that means everything to me. But I’m losing myself trying to love you enough for both of us, trying to hold us together when I feel like I’m the only one holding on. I love you, and that’s what makes this so incredibly hard. A part of me will always wish we could find our way back to each other. But I can’t keep abandoning myself just to keep us together. I needed you to value me, to choose me, and to want to make this work as much as I did. I needed to feel like I was your partner, not just someone who was there when you needed something. I never wanted to give up on us. I just can’t keep losing myself trying to make you see how much I love you. And as much as my heart wants to keep holding on, I think I need to start choosing myself now.
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