Unsent text message to Liam

funny how none of them will EVER reach you and even if it did you’ll NEVER know its me. i wish i could see you and be with you for a while even if it means that nothing will happen between us.

It's not something you fabricate, it isn't something to be concocted carelessly. It isn't a creation we control, merely a force to be reckoned with and respected.

It's not an action or ability, it's alchemy.

If I could ask you one serious question to decide whether this is worth holding on to or not it would be. Do you ever think of me, outside of our ‘shared environment’? And I don’t mean work related thoughts.

There has always been something inherently wrong with me, Im too loud, too messy, too talkative, too much. Im not meant to be kept, I am meant for practice. Im the training wheels to learn on before I am outgrown for a real bike. Im not the girl you bring home to your mom, Im not the one you bring to events, Im the…

On my birthday, someone left a note under my name on Unsent Project saying they still love me.

Was it you? I know it probably wasn’t, but there’s a part of me hoping it was anyway.

One day KG - we will meet again. I know we have issues. We have distance. We need a little more time. You and I can be better versions of ourselves again and one day we can find new love and respect for each other. Let all the bad fade away. I cannot wait to have a life with you in it again and I am working so hard on…