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Another dream of you, even in my dreams you are still the same, condescending arrogant and abusive but oh how I am still under that spell. How I relish every moment, your touch your gaze and your words. I wanted to be devoured by you. I wished more than anything it was real that this is the dream and when I am with you that’s when I am awake. Alive and breathing like it’s the first time all over again. All of you with none of the consequences. No drained bank accounts or fractured families or mental health issues leaving me jobless and homeless Time and time again.
I’ve tried moving on more than once it still isn’t enough it’s not us. It’s not epic. It’s hard and messy and half hearted. There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t think about you. I wonder if you have changed. I wonder who you changed for and why it couldn’t be me. I wonder if there will be a reason that I finally find the answer I have been waiting for.
Or will I just be yours forever. Still waiting…
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