Unsent text message to Madison

R💔, I read something on the Gottman site about soulmates today. It’s well written but it goes against your narrative of what compatibility is and how heavy focus on it leads to an unhealthy relationship dynamic.

What we had and still could have should’ve been held onto, we both should have done better to listen to…

I thought of you several times today,even though I try so hard not to. There’s an ache in my chest that ***** me at odd hours,flashbacks and memories I try to ignore. I really wish I didn’t reopen the door.

You are so special and amazing. I miss my sweet smiling husband 😊 So handsome and good to me. You have always been more than enough. You are a dream come true and my whole world. I miss being affectionate and sending you kisses 😘 I have an infinite wellspring of love to pour into you. I want to spend life with you…

I think if I had one wish it would be that I could stop loving you.

Not because you’re a horrible person. Because you’re not. Not because I hate you either, because I don’t. Far from it.

But this ******* hole in my chest. What the ****. I thought it was gone. I’ve been okay for weeks, nearly months now. So why, why did…

every night i look outside just to see the stars and i think of you as im looking at them “he shouldve been here to see this” because you told me you liked star gazing and i kept it in my mind since the day you told me

You know this is for you. Please read this and think back to 2022:

“I wish you all the best. Sorry we didn’t make it together. I’ll always think of you.”

I hope this jogs your memory.

\- Forever yours.