Unsent text message to Olivia

how's everything going? Whatcha been up to? Week two of classes all done and it feels like I started all over again lol. Driving home makes me think of you, I wish I'm on the way for one of our hangouts everytime I see the turn for your street. Feels weird that you're not there anymore.

i know we talked a bit about it last night in between our bantering but I was serious. I do want you to pursue me. make me feel as wanted and loved as i do for you. I know you say you feel the same and eventually want to do so… but why not start now? that playful intimacy we have with each other is important to…

Every time I’m over it and I start feeling better, I see you. Today you were at my gym, we ignored each other as if 6 months ago we weren’t sleeping in the same bed. I wish you’d come up to me and talk to me, I know I never will. I need to have more respect for myself. You are a cheater, and I know I said I forgive…

How have you not figured this out yet? It's been nearly a year. This is so simple. Come on.

We can fix this.

One chat. Just give me that. One long walk on the downs.

Aren't you curious about why all of this is happening? Don't you want to see if we can make it…

I always loved the way you looked at me, but now you dont. Eyes that once sparkled when I walked into the room, now do their best to avoid me.

I always loved the way you laughed with me. Now everytime I hear it, it feels like youre laughing at me.

I always loved the way you smiled. Now when I see you smile I know its…

Why are you still here? You don't hold onto "us" in any regard. The marriage isn't important to you. You hold onto the completed divorce paperwork like it's a security blanket. You spend your evenings on the opposite side of the house. Don't you want a whole space that's yours? Don't you want to be able to live the…