Unsent text message to Vanessa

What do you want? And why are you asking about me again? I have no beef with you nor do i want the drama so just leave me alone and stop keeping tabs on me too while you're at it. I won't entertain stupid **** anymore as i have too much going on right now and can't have your life spilling into mine and causing me…

I'm sorry for everything I have done to you. for staying this far. for all of your dreams that I came short and never make it happen. for becoming me. You were right. You always were. And I always knew.

but it's ridiculous now isn't it? It's too late for anything. suns of our world are all set. rains pour sorrow in our…

I know you have moved country. I have my sources. I’m happy for you and I’m glad you did. I think if we got back together you would’ve stayed in the UK and that’s probably not what’s best for you right now.

I do still have love for you, despite everything that’s happened from both sides.

The things that separated us are…

I made a vow to love you forever and always, and I meant every single word. Even now, giving you this divorce is the hardest thing I’ve ever done, but I’m doing it as my final act of love for you. Choosing to let you go doesn’t mean my love stopped, it just means I love you enough to honor your path, even if it means…

Thanks for replying and somewhat explaining your actions. But I know you it’s just your usual manipulative, gaslighting behavior - packaged in a bit more caring language this time around. You still haven’t given the reason for disappearing for days, and now you’ve managed to accuse me of not caring for you because I…

A cold night & an invitation.

I get so cold, I miss the warmth. Cuddling against each other, you swadling, in the blankets. You know my bed feel's larger these days, I got so used to complaining about the space you'd take up, Ironically, now it's space I can't seem to fill.

I'll live a life time of cold before Im able…