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I find it hard to hate someone in general let alone a person who was apart of everything good & bad throughout years of my life. I know it isn't the same for everyone, but even if I had a million reasons I would still find the few good parts & dwell on them instead because truth be told they saved my life in a lot of ways.
People around me everyday say & do thing's that remind me of the person I used to be, I have learnt to use that to drive my hate towards myself my god was i pathetic back.
I know that person hates me now & I pray they know nobody will ever hate myself more than me, the people i lost can't ever be replaced & the mistakes made will follow me until I can't face them anymore.
Even after everything I pray everyday that they are happy and healthy, not once was my hate ever towards them i couldn't do it even if I wanted to.
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