Unsent text message to Heather

To me. Knowing it's unexpected. Baby I can talk. I want to talk to you. I neeeeeeeeeeed to talk to you.

I check this page every single day hoping to recognise something in your username or post that let's me know its you.

I've had a couple of moments where a post will sound like you wrote it and my heart races but then I realise it isn't you and I'm numb again.

10 months on and I’m still searching and hoping. Ill never…

I went to the clown store today and everyone knew you.

I was polite at the end because that’s who I am, not because the date went well. It was exhausting. You talked at me, over me, ignored obvious signs I was uncomfortable, mocked me for wanting to leave. Then you made the ending about how I hurt your feelings? Girl, some of us have JOBS in the morning. Go ahead and mock…

Guess ill go **** myself

Maybe after this I can find a nice cliff to yeet myself off

I just want to go home and be alone

Im tired of being given attitude when im trying to help

I didn’t block you out of hatred or malice or any other negative emotion. I blocked you because it was the only was I could heal and try to move on. I would just see you everywhere, sharing a song on Spotify with someone and your profile would show up, typing in “A” on Facebook or Instagram and your name would get…